2022
A new year and the same me. This is the year of no resolutions or plans. This is the year I breathe easy and learn to live in the NOW. Of course, I am not going to be 100% chill, all the time, I mean come on, we are still talking about me. But, I will not worry so much about everything and everyone.
I mean honestly, what is the bloody point? None.
I have spent so much time worrying about things in the past, it is simply ridiculous to think about now. I have spent so much time sulking about people not giving me the attention I thought I deserved. But what was the end result? Nothing. I was the one getting hurt or wasting time of my limited lifetime.
I think about that a lot nowadays, how our days are numbered and this is the only life we get. I feel that has helped a lot in understanding the things and people I need to prioritise. No more chasing the people who cannot bother to call or text. No more waiting for things to happen. No more worrying about a future no one really can do anything about.
I control how I feel and act in the present and that is what I will do.
Yes, things will still whirl in my head and I will still get bothered when people I want to hang out, do not really bother much. But, I will not act passive-aggressive or be so affected by it as much. I mean just because I am thinking of someone, does not mean the other person has to.
2021 taught me how to be more present at the moment, it taught me to be more patient with myself and others. It also showed me that there are people who love me for who I am. And, I can love them for who they are. In 2022, I want more of that.
I do not know what this year will bring but I know one thing, I am ready for it. Not in an aggressive, muscle showing, “let’s go” way but more of a mild panda rolling from one side to the other way.
Happy New Year!