Not a good day
Today I struggled with panic attacks. Fortunately, right now I have it under control.
I was feeling very overwhelmed. I haven't slept properly for a while and I think everything kind of built up. I am trying to study for GMAT and I feel like I am letting my fear of exams get to me.
Then, with the job search not going as well as I had hoped for, I started feeling quite pressurized. And, I realized all of it is in my head. I mean honestly, a lot of what I am trying to do now is not really in my hand. I can prepare for the worst and hope for the best. But, at the end of the day, I cannot control a lot of the things involved in either my job search or college applications.
I think it took me some time to realize it. I am lucky I have friends who helped me see that and currently at 1:30 am in the morning I am trying hard to concentrate on studying hard and not thinking about the eventual events of life.
I had a very bad eating day. I let my inner emotions get to me. Also, I did zero exercises. The only thing that I liked about today: I finally slept. I took a very long nap in the evening and I felt quite like me after that.
Hopefully, tomorrow will be a better day. I have to remember to not be so critical of myself all the time. I tell others to not to do it but sometimes forget to follow my own advice.
Until tomorrow!
Tata!
TODAY'S CHECKLIST:
- Exercise:
- Cals Out: N/A
- Steps: N/A
- Miles: N/A
- Dance: 0 mins
- Others: 0mins
- Food:
- Breakfast: N/A
- Lunch: N/A
- Snack: N/A
- Dinner: N/A
- Eating: Keto
- Cals In: N/A
- Fat: N/A
- Protein: N/A
- Net Carbs: N/A
- Sleep: 3.5 hrs
- Study: Finishing up the cheat sheet videos.
- Read: The Hate U Give (1/52)
- Feeling: Feeling a little lost.