WEIGH-IN PART 5
Today I feel so emotionally defeated and infuriated! I feel, as a human being, I am not doing anything for this world. I feel powerless and helpless.
Today, while entering the main gate at our housing complex, I saw the security guard profusely apologising to a car. A man was about to get out of that car and hit that guard. I noticed he was a minister (a very powerful one here, so for the sake of my family, I have been warned not to put down his name).
[Our car passed this scene, and we were there for about a minute or so, but it was enough to hear what the man was shouting about and what the guard was saying sorry about.]
It unfortunately only took a split second to understand that the guard had stopped this man to inquire about who he wanted to meet inside the housing complex. This is a standard procedure here, and the people who stay inside the housing complex are very thankful for their service.
This man's tiny ego got hurt because he was asked to stop and so he was shouting at the guard. Though the guard was not at fault, he had to keep saying sorry. I wanted to get down from my car and slap that man so hard. I felt so angry. He kept shouting, "How dare you stop me, don't you know who I am?" The guard was almost at the man's feet asking for forgiveness.
I almost immediately wanted to shout at this man, but my parents told me to calm down and not say anything. The reason being this man, and his so called powerful political party can do a lot of harm to my family and me.
I felt powerless as a citizen of this country. These politicians who are supposed to serve us, blatantly use their power to oppress people. That so-called minister in actuality works for that guard as the former is paid by our tax money.
I feel so angry that I couldn't do anything because if I speak up, then most probably I will be harmed and so will my family. I couldn't immediately go and check if that guard was okay or not, but I will for sure.
We all fear his job might be at stake and for what? For doing his job. I swear to all things good on earth, I will make something of me so that one day I will not have to be afraid of such lowlife pretending to be human beings. I will use my power to show them their place. They do not understand human language or emotions.
If you cannot respect your fellow humans, (even if they are your subordinates), you deserve no respect. If there is a God, this man should be punished in the way that will hurt him. I couldn't believe the sheer arrogance and ego I saw in his eyes. It's been hours since I saw that, my blood is still boiling and I hope it does for the rest of my life. I do not want to become compliant. I feel ashamed of me for doing nothing today. For not standing up for what is right!
I do not ever want to bow down to such people. I hope one day I have a loud enough voice to drown his arrogance.
On other news, it has been a good health week. I have exercised and ate well, especially the last few days. I have started doing some shoulder exercises especially meant for Fibro pain.
I have started losing some inches and weight, so I am glad.
I just have to keep up the good work!
Enough for today. For now, I will watch puppy videos and calm down!
Tata!
THE STATS FOR THE WEEK:
DATE: 10/02/2017
Weight: 86.1 Kgs
Body Fat: 50%
BMI: Obese Class 2
Lean Mass: 43.05 Kgs
Neck: 14.60 Inches
Shoulders: 47.4 Inches
Chest: 45 Inches
Waist: 43.6 Inches
Hips: 46.20 Inches
Bicep L: 13.50 Inches
Forearm L: 9.8 Inches
Bicep R: 12.40 Inches
Forearm: 9.8 Inches
Thigh L: 28.2 Inches
Calf L: 15.40 Inches
Thigh R: 28.2 Inches
Calf R: 14.60 Inches
TODAY'S CHECKLIST:
- Exercise: 4363 Steps, weights
- Food:
- Breakfast: None
- Lunch: Rice, Murighanta
- Snack: Ceasar Salad with very little dressing, narkeli kul
- Dinner: Rice, Murighanta
- Study: None
- Read: A Clash of Kings
- Feeling: Furious, at me, the world and in general with everything around me. But, mostly with me.