2017 Chapter VII Section 5

Lazy No More

Every night I tell myself, 'write that blog', but inevitably I fall asleep before I can muster the strength to. I have so many things I want to write about but my laziness is getting in my way. 

I feel sometimes I am a contradiction. On one hand, I am studying, reading up new things, researching and trying to do anything extra I can to make sure I become an expert in my field and also doing housework. But, on the other hand, I cannot do simple things like writing my blog. Sigh! 

Anyway, I have to make a better effort! I really have a lot to say and I need my invisible online supporters (whoever you are) to know them! 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: None!
• Food: 
  • Pre-Workout: None
  • Post-Workout: Breakfast: Leftover mac and cheese!  
  • Lunch: Rice, Bhindi, Keema. 
  • Snack: More leftover mac and cheese!  
  • Dinner: Tortilla, salad, mixed veggies, Roasted chicken leg. 
• Study: UCI, Stanford.
• Read: Born a Crime by Trevor Noah. 
• Feeling: Feeling a bit overwhelmed by my own plans.  

2017 Chapter II Section 19

Fever Again

I hardly got any sleep yesterday and today woke up with a headache.

I have a fever now and my entire body hurts! 

I am going to the doctor tomorrow to see what is up with my body. Why do I keep falling sick?

For now, I am off to sleep again! 

Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: None (I have a fever!)
• Food:
  • Breakfast: None
  • Lunch: Rice, Dal, Lettuce curry, Palak Chicken 
  • Snack: Chia, Flaxseed, Lassi, Cocoa
  • Dinner: Rice, Tadka, Palak Chicken  
• Study: None
• Read: None
• Feeling: Irritated  

2017 Chapter II Section 16

"What's on Your Mind?"

I feel so tired, 
So defeated,  
Having constant arguments,
Some are light, but most are heated! 

I do not know what's next, 
Or where I am going. 
Stuck in a loop,
And, it's frustrating and annoying. 

I feel overloaded, 
With thoughts and feelings, 
Everything is closing in on me, 
Even the walls and the ceilings. 

I cannot breathe, 
Someone wake me up, 
But, I do not want to quit yet, 
I do not want to give up. 

What am I looking for, 
Can someone tell?
Am I going towards Heaven, 
Or, walking into Hell?

Do I need more time, 
Or have I run out of it?
I don't know what to do, 
Should I stand, move or just sit?

I have a feeling, 
I have been here before, 
But, I feel so numb, 
And, about nothing I am sure. 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: Weight Training, 4000 steps, 30 mins dancing
• Food:
  • Breakfast: None
  • Lunch: Quinoa, Dal, Aloo Poshto
  • Snack: Homemade healthy rice noodles (I hardly ate), Chia, Flaxseed 
  • Dinner: Quinoa, Chicken 
• Study: Stanford
• Read: The Confidence Man
• Feeling: Torn inside