2017 Chapter VII Section 26

Of What Was and What Could Have Been!

[Technically It's the 26th, but I have something else planned for that day, so here goes, enjoy, my invisible blog reader!] 

Of course the minute I decided I need to go back to being regular with my blog and life, my health hit me hard. There was nothing new in the thing that happened, the same old pain in the back, couldn't move, pain in the body, prolonged periods, you know the drill by now. I became an emotional mess thinking there is no escaping this loop. This is a part of my life now and the best thing to do is accept it and move on. 

Thanks to my back pain I was barely mobile for a week, then it took another to bounce back completely. And in the mean time, my never ending periods gave me company. And, before you say anything, I am going to all the right doctors and doing everything money allows you to do. These are small annoying health issues which honestly seems to have no permanent solutions. But, one must go on. 

Last week another thing happened which made me breakdown. Chester Bennington from Linkin Park passed away. I have never met him but his voice, his music has been a huge part of my life. My childhood was riddled with bullying and I used to go through bouts of depression. I do not think my family realized to what extent. For me listening to Linkin Park's music was an escape from reality into the world I wanted to build around me. The words from their songs resonated with me. I know this is the truth for many on earth but for me, it felt special. I didn't realize how much I was affected by the sad news, till I sat down and had a small breakdown. I think this news coupled with my already broken health had built up into an emotional ball of pure tears. Chester, your voice will always remain a guardian angel to me. 

It's 3:42 am and I cannot stop my brain from thinking. I am thinking of my past, the people I have left behind, memories of a time that is gone; the good, the bad, the ugly. I feel so weak yet strong at the same time. I do not know if I am making any sense but I wrote something to clear the thoughts from my brain. I will post that tomorrow. For now, I will try to go to sleep. I have an extremely long day tomorrow. 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: HIIT (Soco) (Finally after two weeks)
• Food: 
  • Pre-Workout: None
  • Post-Workout: None
  • Lunch: In N Out!  
  • Snack: Peanut butter and Jam sandwich  
  • Dinner: Pasta  
• Study: UCI.
• Read: Zero to One
• Feeling: Too many thoughts. 

2017 Chapter VI Section 15

I am Back!

I am back, exactly a month later. I have been busy. Life has been crazy. It still is, but finally, I am learning how to cope with it. I knew there would be days I would not get time or would not feel like blogging, but past three months has been insane. One thing after the other. But, I am happy finally I have learned to deal with these new ways of chaos. 

So, in a gist, life is well 'life'ing and I am rolling with it. The fist ACP is almost over. I have started visiting a chiropractor, my pain has gone down a bit, I have been going to the gym regularly (well not so much for the past two weeks as I just started with the chiro and I wanted to give it a little break to see if it works or not), still having issues with letting go off junk food (this country does not make it any easier; good junk food everywhere), I have definitely become stronger, love life still non-existent and well overall, I am still alive and kicking. So, yeah, it's been good! :D

Today, a bunch of us from class went to a Karaoke Bar. I always wanted to go to one but never had the opportunity. It was a bit more expensive of an experience than I had anticipated it to be (hey alcohol can be expensive :P and without it singing like a mad person doesn't work well)! It was CRAZZZYYYY fun. A lot of my classmates will be going back to their respective countries after this ACP and I will miss them. When I came here I did not expect it to be this much fun. I will definitely write more about my experience in a later blog. 

Okay, now I am tired from all the dancing I did while I was singing. It was the best form of cardio I have ever done! 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: HIIT (Soco), Jumping around for 3 hours while Karaoke (I believe it is considered as cardio)
• Food:
  • Pre-Workout: Quest Bar 
  • Post Workout: Breakfast: Starbucks turkey sandwich.
  • Lunch: Chicken Strips and Beer battered fries, Beer, Donut.
  • Snack: In n Out Animal Style Fries.
  • Dinner: Coco Curry & Beer. 
• Study: Stanford (Financing Innovation: Valuing Projects and Firms), UCI (ACP: Business Administration)
• Read: None
• Feeling: Happy. I want to make sure to blog every day now.