2018 Chapter I Section 10

Am I doing enough?

Do you ever get the feeling that you are doing enough with your life? 

I always feel that. It is a constant reminder/alarm I cannot switch off. 

The more I learn, the more I feel like I need to learn. The more I read, I feel like I am not reading enough. I always feel like I am not doing enough. I feel like I need to work more, I need to know more, go to more places, read more, watch more, more, more and more. 

While studying for my entrance exam for my second master's I am thinking if should I do a Ph.D. next? I have already chalked out the next 20 certifications I want to do (including a few computer software and languages) while working and/or studying. 

I feel like I have already chalked out my next 5 years, yet I feel like I am completely clueless about what I am going to do!? 

Am I going insane? 

Am I? 

Till I figure it out (which might be never)...

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: 
  • Cals Out: N/A
  • Steps: N/A
  • Miles: N/A
  • Dance: 0 mins
  • Others: 0mins
• Food: 
  • Breakfast: N/A 
  • Lunch: N/A  
  • Snack: N/A
  • Dinner: N/A 
• Eating: Keto
  • Cals In: N/A
  • Fat: N/A
  • Protein: N/A
  • Net Carbs: N/A
• Sleep: 7 hrs
• Language progress: Spanish (stuck at 25% on Duolingo) 
• Study: Going well. On track, till now. 
• Read: The Hate U Give (1/52) (I haven't touched this book since I started reading)
• Feeling: Being a couch potato while studying. I got my periods after 2 months so phew, and I didn't have to use medicines. 

2017 Chapter III Section 21

Meal Prep & More

Hello hello, it's been a while since I have written properly. I will take the time one day to edit in everything in the previous blogs. I kept writing a log of everything so I could write but every day at the end of the day I would get super tired and not be able to write! :( 

I have been so tired since I got to Irvine. It's been almost a week and a half since I reached. And, every day it has been something or the other. 

Had to get the room set up, then bank account, this and that. Small and big things just kept adding up. (I will edit in every detail in the previous blogs.)

Most of the things are ready and done, and I am getting used to living here. Residing in a new place was a bit of a worry for me since I have a tendency of falling sick easily in a new setup. But, till now (fingers crossed) everything has gone smoothly. 

I have noticed my cough is gone. I was sure that it was the pollution back home that affected my cough. And, Irvine is super clean, so I think that has been good for me. 

The weather is a bit cooler here than I am used to, but it has been quite pleasant for me. I love my daily walks here! 

I have been eating right too. But, I wanted to do a proper meal plan, and today I spent almost 6 hours prepping for two week's worth of food! :)

I am feeling tired, but now I am so happy. Now, I have to follow it correctly and get healthier.

I also want to go back to properly writing every day.

One day at a time! I have a few plans I need to get my life on the right track and now to slowly execute them! 

Let's do this! :)

Tata! 

[P.S. Just realised it's raining outside and I love the smell of wet earth! :)]

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: 6k Steps, Cooking all day (oh yeah it's a form of workout when you do it for 6 hours!)
• Food:
  • Breakfast: Cheerios, Vanilla Almond Milk
  • Lunch: One & half White Tortilla, Homemade Chicken curry, Egg Bhurji 
  • Snack: Blackberry, Mio Electrolyte, One piece of Brown Bread, Hazelnut spread 
  • Dinner: Brown Rice, Salad, Chole 
• Study: Stanford
• Read: None
• Feeling: Feeling inspired and motivated!

2017 Chapter II Section 9

I Am a Good Girl

Today was my first day of '15 days of eating right and exercising'. I was a very good girl! 

I ate right, did my exercises but the only thing, though, I slept a lot. I do not know why. 

I just couldn't wake up in the morning. I slept again in the afternoon. But, today my pain is also a little less, so I am not complaining. 

Overall, I am feeling encouraged. 

I wanted to study a bit more today, but I feel very foggy in the head today. 

So, I will just let me have a pass today. It's fine. I know I will make it up tomorrow. 

[I know I talk to my brain like it is a child. I think it might be!!!]

Today I felt like sharing a poem. This one is very close to my heart and whenever I feel lost, or unhappy or feel like I need a boost, I read this. It is not a euphoric poem, but I just love it. 

Well, on that note, I bid you adieu! Enjoy the poem!

Tata! 

Faery Song

- John Keats

Shed no tear! oh, shed no tear!
The flower will bloom another year.
Weep no more! oh, weep no more!
Young buds sleep in the root's white core.
Dry your eyes! oh, dry your eyes!
For I was taught in Paradise
To ease my breast of melodies,--
Shed no tear.

Overhead! look overhead!
'Mong the blossoms white and red--
Look up, look up! I flutter now
On this fresh pomegranate bough.
See me! 'tis this silvery bill
Ever cures the good man's ill.
Shed no tear! oh, shed no tear!
The flower will bloom another year.
Adieu, adieu -- I fly -- adieu!
I vanish in the heaven’s blue,--
Adieu, adieu!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: Weights, 1804 Steps
• Food:
  • Breakfast: None
  • Lunch: Quinoa, Veggies, Dal
  • Snack: Orange, Jamrul, Narkeli Kul, Cocoa Milkshake with Chia & Flaxseeds
  • Dinner: Quinoa, Eggs, Chicken Stew
• Study: None
• Read: None
• Feeling: Sleepy but happy

2017 Chapter I Section 13

Weigh-In Part 1

I am a ridiculously stubborn person. I know what is right for me, and I know the exact solution to many of my problems, but I do not follow them. I do not know, why!? 

Why Arunima, why, why are you like this? Why-why-why? 

So, anyway, I have decided that I need to be held responsible for my health. (Yes, that is how much I care about me, I need to be held accountable on a social platform or else I am just too lazy to take care! Ain't I the beacon of humankind?) 

This is, of course, for none, other than ME. But, apparently, this is the only way to get my brain to understand. I hope!

So, about 18 days back, I started my 'need to get fit' routine, but I haven't kept an account of anything much. So, I have decided to keep a tab on it from now on.
 
Fridays will be my 'weigh in' day. Last time I had measured was 18 days ago. Since then I have lost 2 kgs and 4% body fat. I have also lost a few inches from different parts of my body. Whoopee! :D

Though the progress is not that bad, I have not been able to get my food routine in control. More than often I eat things I am not supposed to and in quantities, I am not supposed to. 

I have been exercising almost every day, either walking or some form of cardio and, in between, also did some weights and interval training. But, they have been very Hodgepodge. 

I want to make it more regular and a little more planned. I do have a proper meal plan and an exercise plan which I had followed once earlier which were made by experts in the field (I mean a trainer and a dietician). 

I have even done my research and modified it to fit my current dietary requirements and exercise needs. I just need to follow it correctly! 

Well, here is to hoping my brain is reading this as I write it. (Yes, I think I am two persons in one, I contradict me more than anyone I have ever met.)

Anyway, these are the stats:

Date: 13/01/2017

• Weight: 87.1 Kgs
• Body Fat: 52%
• BMI: Obese Class 2
• Lean Mass: 41.81 Kgs
• Neck: 14.50 Inches
• Shoulders: 45 Inches
• Chest: 44.20 Inches
• Waist: 45.20 Inches
• Hips: 46.70 Inches
• Bicep L: 13.30 Inches
• Forearm L: 9.8 Inches
• Bicep R: 12.50 Inches 
• Forearm: 9.8 Inches
• Thigh L: 26.8 Inches
• Calf L: 15.70 Inches
• Thigh R: 27 Inches
• Calf R: 14.70 Inches

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

• Exercise: Fitstar First Session,  4002 Steps.
• Food:
  • Breakfast: None, I woke up at 11!!!!! 
  • Lunch: Quinoa, Dal, Veggies. 
  • Snack: Pizza! (I am ashamed but all of us felt like having pizza)
  • Dinner: Salad
• Study: Stanford. Half a module. 
• Read: None.
• Feeling: Started the day off feeling groggy and lost, now feeling more focused and happier.