Daily 2017

2017 Chapter III Section 21

Meal Prep & More

Hello hello, it's been a while since I have written properly. I will take the time one day to edit in everything in the previous blogs. I kept writing a log of everything so I could write but every day at the end of the day I would get super tired and not be able to write! :( 

I have been so tired since I got to Irvine. It's been almost a week and a half since I reached. And, every day it has been something or the other. 

Had to get the room set up, then bank account, this and that. Small and big things just kept adding up. (I will edit in every detail in the previous blogs.)

Most of the things are ready and done, and I am getting used to living here. Residing in a new place was a bit of a worry for me since I have a tendency of falling sick easily in a new setup. But, till now (fingers crossed) everything has gone smoothly. 

I have noticed my cough is gone. I was sure that it was the pollution back home that affected my cough. And, Irvine is super clean, so I think that has been good for me. 

The weather is a bit cooler here than I am used to, but it has been quite pleasant for me. I love my daily walks here! 

I have been eating right too. But, I wanted to do a proper meal plan, and today I spent almost 6 hours prepping for two week's worth of food! :)

I am feeling tired, but now I am so happy. Now, I have to follow it correctly and get healthier.

I also want to go back to properly writing every day.

One day at a time! I have a few plans I need to get my life on the right track and now to slowly execute them! 

Let's do this! :)

Tata! 

[P.S. Just realised it's raining outside and I love the smell of wet earth! :)]

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 6k Steps, Cooking all day (oh yeah it's a form of workout when you do it for 6 hours!)
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Cheerios, Vanilla Almond Milk
    • Lunch: One & half White Tortilla, Homemade Chicken curry, Egg Bhurji 
    • Snack: Blackberry, Mio Electrolyte, One piece of Brown Bread, Hazelnut spread 
    • Dinner: Brown Rice, Salad, Chole 
  • Study: Stanford
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Feeling inspired and motivated!

2017 Chapter III Section 20

Day of planning meals & life

What did I do today because time seemed to be running quite fast and I seem to be left here trying to catch up?!

I started the day by studying! Then, suddenly while studying budgeting, I had this brain wave where suddenly I wanted to do my own budgeting. Then, I started doing my budgeting and completely lost track of time! 

But, the end results of it has been good. 

I did a few months' budgets and then also a tentative meal plan. 

Once my sister was back from work we went to shopping for the stuff I needed for meal prep. The whole day I kept thinking about budgeting and meal prep! I would say it was quite fruitful and I am happy this organised side of my brain is back! :) 

For a while, I couldn't really get my organisational skills working right so I am happy to have it back! I didn't study as much as I would have loved to, but still, I feel the day went well!

Now, I am super tired and so off to bed!

Tata!  

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: 7k Steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Egg whites, Frozen veggies
    • Lunch: Chicken Curry, Dal, Tortilla 
    • Snack: Nothing 
    • Dinner: Chicken Curry, Dal, Tortilla 
  • Study: Stanford
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: My brain feels happy

2017 Chapter III Section 14

Super Tired Day 3

Oh my god, I have been so tired every day of the week. 

I wanted to sit down and write but by the time I get free to write, my brain gets all mushy! Sleep sleep, need more sleep!

From tomorrow, I have to make it a point to write, because I have so much to talk about. 

Till then, Tata! 

[P.S. Finally won my first Gym fight (Pokemon) and it made me so super happy! :D Also, I won a gym for an hour before I lost it. People are quite active here and that makes me happy! :)] 

Today's Checklist:

  • Exercise: 9442 Steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Egg Whites, Veggies, Purple Corn Tortilla
    • Lunch: Pasta, Homemade sauce (super healthy)
    • Snack: Instant Noodles. 
    • Dinner: Salad, Diet Canada Dry
  • Study: Stanford (Building Business Models)
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Tired but happy! :)

2017 Chapter III Section 8

Here we go

The first leg of the journey starts today.

I have a lot to do, 

A very long way to go. 

 

Be with me Thamma, (Dadu, Dimma too)

You are my God, Goddess and all! 

With your strength and the love from others, 

I know I will succeed. 

 

I need to win this one, 

Not only for me. 

But, for all those, I want to fight for. 

 

Give me a chance to get my voice, 

So, I can shout for others.

 

May your love, blessings and prayers, 

Make me the Human I wish to be! 

Tata! 

[Note: I am currently flying across the world.]

 

2017 Chapter III Section 7

Ready to Go

Bags are packed, tickets checked, Brain feeling jumbled. 

Nervous, apprehensive, hoping for the best, fearing the worst! 

Let this plan of mine come to fruition oh invisible beings of power and more! 

Fingers crossed. 

Let's do this! 

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing, 8k steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Rice, dal, fish
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk
    • Dinner: Koraishutir kochuri, Ghugni 
  • Study: Stanford 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Excited yet nervous! 

2017 Chapter III Section 6

Packing Done

I have packed my bags for the 100000th time in a row.

I keep checking and re checking, packing and re-packing! 

I keep feeling like I am leaving something behind! 

Is it my apprehension or my excitement?

Will I get what I am chasing?

Only time will tell.

Hopefully, I go a few steps closer to my dream!

Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing, 8k steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Rice, Dal, Veggies, Fish
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk, Fruits, Black Tea
    • Dinner: Chicken paturi, dal, rice 
  • Study: None 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Hope all goes well

2017 Chapter III Section 5

Farewell Parties & More

I am too tired to write anything. 

My awesome friends showed up to bid me bye! 

They are so sweet and it was all quite heartfelt. 

Now, I am poofed from all the love! Need to sleep for a bit in the warmth of their frienship! :P

Tata! 

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: None.
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: Rice, veggies (very little)
    • Lunch: Pizza, Fried Rice, Chilly Chicken, Coke Zero (Feast)
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk, 4 Appletinis
    • Dinner: Pasta, pizza, Quesadilla (Chilli's)
  • Study: None 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Feeling loved

2017 Chapter III Section 4

Packing Part 8010928489 

What to take and what not to take is the question! 

But is it? 

The more I pack, the less I feel things are getting done! 

Making lists, getting rid of them, making new ones! 

This is not helping my OCDish nature! 

Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing, 8k steps
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Rice, Dal, Veggies, Fish
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk, Iced Tea
    • Dinner: Momos, Fish Fry and Fries
  • Study: Stanford 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Exhausted 

2017 Chapter III Section 3

Then & Now

[Today I am not doing the weigh-in as nothing has changed since last week as I was sick the whole week and I truly want to talk about what I have written below!]

As I pack my room and get ready to leave on a somewhat long journey, I keep finding my old pictures. I have never been comfortable in front of the camera as much as I am behind it. But, on these rare occasions, somehow I willingly stood in front of a camera and let someone take my picture. 

When I see my old pictures, somehow I see how much I have changed. I have evolved. Most of it is good, but there are things which I loved about the old me, which is slowly disappearing. 

Anyone who sees my old pictures would always point out how thin I was at that point. Earlier it used to bother me, but now I think I have grown a much thicker skin! (quite literally I feel)

When I look at these pictures, I see a more innocent me. I see how so many people so easily used my naivety. I have always been one of those 'helpful' people. I have on so many occasions, done things for others even when it hurt me or delayed my work. I used to do that even with no thanks in return and sometimes after I helped I would hear rumours about those very people talking bad behind my back. 

But, I have obviously learnt. 

One of the things I miss about old me is I used to be a less angry person. I am not sure if it is because of my current situation that has turned me into an old grinch or I am slowly turning into one. But, I do get angry quite quickly nowadays. And, I do not like it. 

I have always hated anger in general, and now I hate it that I do that.

I obviously miss the fact that I used to be quite slim. But, I am more confident in my being than I used to be. I might be the heaviest now, but I have the most confidence in me than ever before. 

I have realised my heart is still the same. I still feel the pains I used, and now I feel them even more as now I understand the truth behind those betrayals. 

I have always had a wall around me but now it is a lot more inviting yet a lot tougher to break (I do not know if it makes sense to you as it made to me). 

Let me try to explain: I do talk to more people and am in general less judgemental (I was very idealistic before), but I do not jump forward to help each and everyone as I used to before. I have become a little picky about whom I let into my heart completely.  

Anyway, I think I still have a lot more growing to do! And, am quite happy with the me that I have become. I just always hope to remember where I have come from and where I want to go! 

On that note, Tata!

TODAY'S CHECKLIST:

  • Exercise: Weight Training, Packing
  • Food:
    • Breakfast: None
    • Lunch: Macher Paturi, Rice, Aloo Gobi
    • Snack: Lactose-Free Milk, Coffee, Cupcake
    • Dinner: Luchi, Kosha Mangsho 
  • Study: Stanford 
  • Read: None
  • Feeling: Nostalgic.